How could I be so lost,
In a place I know so well? How could I be so broken, In a family so together? How could I be so lonely, Surrounded by so many? How could I be so unhappy, Surrounded by so much beauty? How could I be me, When even I remain a mystery?
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It was him... I haven't seen him in forever. I was playing some game and then was going to the movies. When I was waiting in a line at the movies... I saw him. He ran to me... out of anyone else in this place and it was packed like people in the streets of New York City. He told me he was sorry for everything and that he wants to be with me forever and he wants to get married to show me that he wants me and no one else in a few months. He kissed me and hugged me so tight. All I could hear in the back ground was people saying awwww.... my face turned red, but I was happy! I loved him. He was all I wanted!! Thank you!
I wake up... goodness what just happened.... where did my feelings go to now...??? To: JB By: Brittany Pettus
The soul catering my glimpse of heaven on earth, pressed into my fragile mind, light piercing into his eyes, the color was warm as the sunset, Explosive with colors, highlighting the passage of his soul, the reflections sang to me a sweet lullaby, Praise of pureness, The music pouring into my heart, beating with the melody Wishing to take part in the divine manifestation, drawn back by the beauty in front of me, My vision locked on every aspect of you, making me fall deeper in love with you.... He is amazing. I think he might be the love of my life. He understands me. He comforts me. He likes me. Ugh, I want him. Everything about him is so dreamy!! When I first saw him... It was like seeing an angel. He could be the perfect husband. I would love to grow old with him. Ugh!!.
BUT.... I am scared someone is going to take him. I am scared that the other crush will get him before me. Schools Location I don't know. You guys hear me talk about love all the time, but this one.... I want to hold on to forever, but I am scared that some things could happen if I do. He makes my world sparkle. Should I go with my heart and just go for it? or should I go with my head and not? I want to go for him, but remember the turn-out could be terrible and others thoughts could tear everything down. Which one?..... Settle down with me Cover me up Cuddle me in Lie down with me And hold me in your arms And your heart's against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet And with a feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now Kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love Settle down with me And I'll be your safety You'll be my lady I was made to keep your body warm But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms Oh no My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now Kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love Yeah I've been feeling everything From hate to love From love to lust From lust to truth I guess that's how I know you So I hold you close to help you give it up So kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love Kiss me like you wanna be loved You wanna be loved You wanna be loved This feels like falling in love Falling in love We're falling in love "Wonderful how big my boobs would be if I was black?"
Dang, I have no words to explain my friend December. We haven't been friends for long, but she is an amazing friend. She has been there for me through a lot. I can tell her most of anything in the world and she won't judge me (sometimes). I have cried in front of her before and she didn't even care. Dang I love ya December and thank you for be such an amazing friend to me!!! Keep smiling and stay beautiful!!! :D I know you’ve been hurt before
But never say never, baby Slow down, don’t close the door You’ve been waiting forever, baby See I know your heart’s been scarred But you’ve come this far So baby don’t run away I, I know you’re close to giving up I just want to give you love And try to keep a smile on your face So open your eyes & see that we belong together,baby You’ll be surprised to find that things can be much better I.. want to take you to a place Where love is something more than you imagined, yeah I.. put it right in your face Boy, it’s yours All you got to do is reach out and grab it You waited all this time You waited all this time I put it right in your face Boy, it’s yours All you got to do is reach out and grab it You played your cards, he left you with a broken heart Baby, I’ll never, I’d treat you like a treasure It’s not your fault, I know you took it hard That was a mistake For us it’s never too late You can’t live your life in fear I know it’s hard to move on You’ve just got to forget it Cause baby, the sky is clear The rain is gone, and the sun is shining I.. want to take you to a place Where love is something more than you imagined, yeah I.. put it right in your face Boy, it’s yours All you got to do is reach out and grab it You waited all this time You waited all this time I put it right in your face Boy, it’s yours All you got to do is reach out and grab it You waited all this time [x3] You waited all this Time to get up boy And take a chance, yeah There’s nothing to be scared of Just grab my hand If you need someone by your side With the love inside Night or day, I’ll be there You know I will Cause I... I want to take you to a place Where love is something more than you imagined, yeah I.. put it right in your face Boy, it’s yours All you got to do is reach out and grab it "I'm sorry Mum, but this world is just not my place,
I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in, I've come to realise this world's full of sin, There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space, I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race, It's a disgrace, I was misplaced, Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place, It's ok though, 'cause you'll see me soon, You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon, As it shines bright, throughout the night, And remember everyone's facing their own fights, But i can't deal with this pain, I'm not a fighter, You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know that I died in vain, Because the world around me is the one to blame, And I know in a year you'll forget I'm gone, 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on, That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school, So I'm going by the law majority rules, My presence on this earth is not needed any longer, And if anything I hope this makes you stronger, You're the best friend that I ever had, Such a shame I had to make you so very sad, Just remember that you meant everything to me, And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key, Now it's time to go I'm running out of space to write, And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you from the clouds above, And sending down the purest and whitest dove, To watch over you and be my helpful eye, So this is it world... Goodbye!" THIS IS THE WORST MIGHT OF MY LIFE!!!!! I HAVE LOST THE THING THAT I LOVE MOST IN THIS WHOLE WORLD!!! AND NO ONE UNDERSTAND OR CARES!!!!! I NEED IT BACK!!!! UGH!!!! I WISH YOU GUYS WOULD UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS AND HOW MUCH I NEED MY DRUG BACK. UGH!!! HELP!!!!
All I think about is you. Not a thing I can do. Just how it is with love like this. I can't help but be, so completely, head of heals the feeling is so unreal. Satisfying couldn't describe it, it was like I was depressed so the doctor prescribed it. Love like this is hard to come by, so I won't say bye, I'm gonna stay, only by your side. Look into my eyes, loyal completely, us for eternity. We can make it through anything, we're more than just a fling. Damn you're my everything. I can't lose you, if I lose you, I lose myself too.
Just a day ago I found this wonderful show, that I have never heard of before. It is called FoQ- Fer y David. This show is full Spanish, but yes it does have English subtitles. I have just finished the last show. I have been crying for the last 3-4 episodes. I am not going to give anything away, but everything gets very emotional. After I have watched the whole season on this show... it made me think, I feel like that the David character is me. I can understand everything that David goes through, throughout the season. I understand Fer's feelings and everything but I relate a lot more with David. I really suggest this show to everyone!! I am going to tag the first show of FoQ- Fer y David. I hope you enjoy this show. Also there is another show called FoQ- Historia de Fer. I am going to start that show now but I was so glad to find this show. This shows me how much I truly love "HIM". When I see you with anyone but me, I just die inside. I think about day through night, dreams after dreams, you are still in my head. I wake up every single day wishing you will come back, wishing I could wake up looking at you every morning. There is not even a second that goes by without me thinking about you. You have made me smile so much. We laughed so hard that we lots our breaths as too when you get punched in the belly. We cuddled up together and watched movies and shows all the time. Being next to you was everything, knowing that you was alright, knowing that You love me no matter what will happen. Ahh and that song that we always listened to... I listen to that song everyday. I just fall asleep with that song because I imagine you are in my arms and we are falling asleep with each other.
.......... b u t ................... When I tell you how much I love you and the reasons why, I just feel like you don't care when I tell you these things. I could be wrong about all of this, but it just seems like that to me. I feel like when you say that you still like me, you really don't and you are just saying that to make me feel good. I understand that you care about me. You have shown everything about that. I just don't understand sometimes... why won't you give me another change? Why can't I just love you till I die? Why won't you let me show you how much I care and sorry for what I did? Just all these questions pop in my head all the time. I just wish you would understand how I feel and how much want you back in my life. Every sense you left... well everything has gone down hill. I need my boost back. I want everyone to know about us! I want to make everyone jealous. I love you so much!! Please love me forever!! (Attention this is just a story, NOT real life) What if I stumble? What if I fall?
What if I'm the chapion on the crawl? What if I lied just to cover the truth? And what if I waste all the days of my youth? What if I cast all my dreams in the sea? What if my greatest fear is me? Where can I run to escape from myself? Would you be there? Would you be there? Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest. Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy. And If I let you down will you still want me around? If I'm broken would you still love me? What if I'm troubled? What if I'm flawed? And what if they all just think I'm a fraud? And what if I'm left without a choice? And what if I like girls? What if boys? And what if I listen to all that they say? They promised forever and then walk away. Where can I run to escape from myself? Would you be there? Would you be there? Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest. Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy. If I let you down will you still want me around? If I'm broken would you still love me? Oh would you still love me? (What if I'm broken, what if I'm broken? What if I'm Broken? What if I'm broken?) Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest. Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy. If I let you down would you still want me around? If I'm broken would you still love me? Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest. Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy. And If I let you down would you still want me around? If I'm broken would you still love me? (Love me) Oh would you still love me? (What if I stumble? What if I fall? What if I'm the chapion on the crawl?) What if I'm broken? (What if I lied just to cover the truth?) What if I'm broken? (And what if I waste all the days of my youth?) What if I'm broken? (What if I cast all my dreams in the sea? What if my greatest fear is me?) What if I'm broken? (Where can I run to escape from myself? Would you be there? Would you be there?) Attention! I just want to say... My blog might sound real sometimes.... but most of the time they are just stories I write! So stop going crazy about them. Thanks. Have fun reading!!These are other but new!! I am editing snow pictures now!! Can't wait to post them!! Heart beats fast
Colors and promises How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall? But watching you stand alone, All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow. One step closer [Chorus:] I have died every day waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more Time stands still Beauty in all she is I will be brave I will not let anything take away What's standing in front of me Every breath Every hour has come to this One step closer [Chorus:] I have died every day waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more One step closer One step closer [Chorus:] I have died every day waiting for you Darling don't be afraid I have loved you For a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more And all along I believed I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more Dear darlin’, please excuse my writing.
I can’t stop my hands from shaking 'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight. I miss you and nothing hurts like no you. And no one understands what we went through. It was short. It was sweet. We tried. And if my words break through the wall And meet you at your door, All I can say is “Girl, I mean them all.” Dear darlin’, please excuse my writing. I can’t stop my hands from shaking 'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight. I miss you and nothing hurts like no you. And no one understands what we went through. It was short. It was sweet. We tried. We tried. [Woman:] I understand where he's coming from. Been thinking about the bar we drank in. Feeling like the sofa was sinking. I was warm in the hold of your eyes. So if my words break through the wall To meet you at your door, All I can say is “Girl, I mean them all.” Dear darlin’, please excuse my writing. I can’t stop my hands from shaking 'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight. I miss you and nothing hurts like no you. And no one understands what we went through. It was short. It was sweet. We tried. Oh I can't cope. These arms are yours to hold. And I miss you and nothing hurts like no you. And no one understands what we went through. It was short. It was sweet. We tried. We tried Nothing ever happens in the town
It's the same old thing when we go out A new place to hang with the same crowd I lucked up when you came and sat down Now I'm here with you and I'm admiring the view I hope you never ever never ever cut me loose And I don't know what to do because... I'm falling into something real And I can't stop me I'm knocking over everything And you just caught me From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know know yo I'm falling like a Domino I'm falling, falling, falling just like a Domino I'm falling, falling, falling just like a Domino From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know know yo I'm falling like a Domino Always said true love never happens A little push caused this chain reaction I never thought you'd be my distraction I admit boy you got me crashin' Now I'm here with you and I'm admiring the view I hope you never ever never ever cut me loose And I don't know what to do because... I'm falling into something real And I can't stop me I'm knocking over everything And you just caught me From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know know yo I'm falling like a Domino I'm falling, falling, falling just like a Domino I'm falling, falling, falling just like a Domino From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know know yo I'm falling like a Domino When it all comes down you gonna have my back But when the last one falls baby we got that You saying hoo, hoo what hoo hoo keep saying hoo hoo Everybody When it all comes down you gonna have my back But when the last one falls baby we got that You saying hoo, hoo what hoo hoo keep saying hoo hoo Everybody I'm falling into something real And I can't stop me I'm knocking over everything And you just caught me From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know know yo I'm falling like a domino I'm falling into something real And I can't stop me I'm knocking over everything And you just caught me From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know know yo I'm falling like a domino Fallin, fallin, fallin like a domino (just like a domino) Said I'm falling just like a domino From start to finish I promise I'm in this Just wanna let you know yo I'm falling like a domino I'm falling like a domino Yo yo I'm falling like a domino What is a want? A want is something you want. You might want a million things in the world. Well just sometimes the things that you have are better then what you might want. Wants are wants, but haves are already have and those things could be better or things that you can live with right now. If you really WANT that thing then go for it. No one is stopping for what you want. Your heart goes for what it wants. NEVER EVER stop your heart from what it wants.
Gosh... Well where do I start? I have liked him for a while. He has liked me longer then I could ever remember. I knew he liked me, but I wasn't able to accept that till recently. After I accepted this... it was stupid to not do so back then. I just didn't know if I guess, wasn't ready for it yet. But I love him, and he loves me. We have our arguments and disagreements all the time, but at the end nothing will change my feeling about or for him. I am thankful to call him mine, He put sparks in my world! We have our problems that we need to work on, but everyone and relationship they always have a little problem, but anything with him is special. People might say that I am too young to understand what love is... well technically all of us know a certain part of what love is. But all of us don't understand love or how it works. Everyone is different! I am talking about love right now and if you don't like it then send me a message---> here or just---> leave. I love you so very much!
“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.” ― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever Gosh, I have no clue how to start, I have been through so much in the past. I have been in the hospital because I have tried to kill myself and have hurt myself. I have tried a million things to solve this. I listen to music, read, drawing, ...etc. I have done a lot in this world to stop this depression, and nothing has help it :(
People just don't understand that I have a major fucking headache and I just hurt 24-7!! I just people would shut the fuck up so I can relax! I wish my doctor would change my meds so I can get this migraine over with but no they won't do so! So I am sitting here suffering!! UGH!!!! Kill me now!!
Hey guys I have done a lot of photography lately!! Please look!! Barnes's Photography
I am so thankful for my boyfriend and my dog Maggie!! These two people are the most amazing people I have in my life. They make me feel amazing and they just well makes me me! They are the best and I can't wait to spend time with my dog and my boyfriend well soon to be husband forever and every single day!! Thank you so much Maggie and my boyfriend for being in my life!!
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Evan (me). I am the Author of this Heaven. I write about events, feelings, my photography, and well everything that happens in my life here. I hope you enjoy my writing. Any question or anything please message me on the contact page. Archives
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