I hurt you really bad, I know. I regret every single bit of it with all of my heart. I wish I could just go back in time and fix everything. You mean so much to me. It is going to be nearly impossible for me to move on. You make me smile, laugh, happy...etc. I'm trying to fix all this because you deserve happiness! So if leaving is the only way you get that is without me: I understand. You have always been there for me, through thick and thin! You treated me better than anyone ever has. I want to be the one that gives happiness to you though! I know you don't love me.. But if you ever grow that back, I will be here waiting for you!! I know, I shouldn't wait, but that is how much you do mean to me. I do love you so very much! You will see that sooner or later!
Here is a poem I wrote for you.. Please read it.. I don't know how to do it, But I have to do right. I need to say I'm sorry, I don't want to see us fight. I'm staring at the clouds, I sit and reminisce. I remember all the good times we had, I remember our first kiss. I don't want to have to end it, I don't want to see it go free. I want to be able to feel your lips, Not just in my dreams. Although I constantly dream of you, It just doesn't seem enough. I want to see you face, I want to feel your touch. I want you in my bed, Hugging and kissing me. I want you in my bed, Making love to me. I miss all the times we've shared, And I can't stand to let it go Over something that I did. I really went down low. I shared a kiss with someone else When I should only be kissing you, And right after I did that I felt I wasn't true, When his lips were touching mine. I could only see your face Running through my mind. But out of everything I did the most, The real reason why I cried, Instead of being honest I sat there and I lied. Damn, I want to turn back time And just tell you what went down. I wouldn't be writing this, I wouldn't have this frown. You'd be able to trust me, You wouldn't want to leave. I would be able to hold a smile, I'd be able to breathe. Because I did that one thing, My life is just a mess. Because I lied to you, I'm suffering from stress, I'm suffering from a broken heart Because I broke yours, But then karma came and turned on me, I wish I wouldn't have lied to you, I want to make it work. I want to be your only one, I don't want to have to search. Search for a different man, 'Cause I only want you But when I close my eyes, And I open and you're not there, A tear runs down my face. I can't act like I don't care, And I hope you come back And forgive me for what I've done. Give me another chance, Give me this last one. Je t'aime (I love you)
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Evan (me). I am the Author of this Heaven. I write about events, feelings, my photography, and well everything that happens in my life here. I hope you enjoy my writing. Any question or anything please message me on the contact page. Archives
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